The healing process....

   Every day that I see my Mom I am really impressed with how much better she looks.  To think that less then 48 hours ago she was just coming out of major heart surgery, almost seems impossible.   Unfortunately, she is not healing as fast as she would like and a major factor for her, has actually been nausea, not pain.   She has always been one who can not stand feeling nauseous, and I am exactly the same way.   It's so much worse to me than pain and I can tolerate pain ten times better than feeling sick to my stomach.  I am definitely my mother's daughter when it comes to nausea.   And because of that, she's not eating or gaining the strength and energy she needs from food.  We all thought for sure, eating would not be an issue....but it has been and it's delaying her progress.    But, I know that when I feel sick....all I want to do is go to bed, sleep and hope that when I wake up, it will be gone.  I also can't eat when my stomach feels so awful.   She's even having a hard time with drinking and it's ALL so important.   It's also hard to see her struggle and feel like she's not getting better.  On the upside, she looks better every day, as one less tube, or IV and is truly healing.   That's all a plus, but she can't see that and just feels miserable, which is hard to see!

   And today, that is all is saw in her face, was upset and a struggle to try and force some fruit or jello into her system.   It was not a good day and I finally could not stand being there and came home early.  I am also not feeling well and my pain level is much higher.  I even when for a Chiro adjustment this morning, and while it felt better for a while....it's already gone and I now just want to sleep too!
 
     I feel so bad for her and HOPE that today is the last day of this.  They are changing her pain meds, giving her anti-nausea meds and I sincerely HOPE it helps, as I know it's vital for her to eat!   She's down on herself and expected that it would not be this bad.  I admit I thought the same, so I am finding today the most discouraging day of the past 8.  I dread going back again tomorrow and just hurt....but don't want to complain, as I know she's in more pain than I am, at this time!!   Even so....I can't even stand the thought of making that 40 minute drive again.   I just want to stay home.....relax and make some cards.  I miss my life and my hobby and I hate how this is going now!!    I'm upset, sore and so frustrated and feeling so awful for her!!

   Please continue to keep her in your thoughts and let's ALL hope that tomorrow is a better day!!